Well, the first post is always the hardest to write! I am an aspiring writer, hoping to break into the magazine business, but by documenting my highs and lows on the way!
I've decided I'm probably going to keep myself to myself identity-wise as I feel a lot more confident when nobody knows that it's me that has written something. I know I need to get a backbone, become 'gutsy' as they say, and just get on with it. But it is no secret that this is a competitive business.
I'm envious of people who seem to have natural talents. I've seen a few blogs on the internet of girls the same age as me who have thousands of followers, and I wonder how they do it?! I need to find my area of expertise. I don't think I'm a bad writer, but I need to find confidence and an area I feel comfortable writing about.
I'm currently at uni trying my hardest to get a degree, among a few competitive, power-hungry girls. They are lovely people to be friends with, but I can tell that when you cut to the chase, some of these girls would would forget about you in a New York second if it meant getting an opportunity to advance.
I guess ambition is never a bad thing to have, but there are times when it just becomes a bit of an ugly trait. Thankfully there only a handful of people like this I can say I know, but sometimes it can make me feel a bit down in the dumps and inadequate.
In an industry where everyone is out for themselves, where will the girl who is too scared to speak out find herself?
